Went for weigh in today was tempted not to go as I was feeling very confident but glad I did because I did manage to lose half a lb which was ok it would have been ok even if I had managed to stay the same I was just happy not to have put on. I feel in a better frame of mind today as I was feeling as though I was fighting a losing battle but now I know that I can mantain I feel a little better.

Bethany is starting to feel better with regards her tummy aches the doctors couldnt come up with anything so we decided to try an elimination diet and the 1st day she had only fruit and started to feel better straight away and the next day she introduced dairy and still felt fine on the 3rd day by mistake she had 2 biscuits that they were giving out at school and the pain came back within half an hour so Bethany has been keen to stay away from wheat which she has now done and the tummy pain has really been kept at bay . Tomorrow I think we will have to introduce some wheat without her knowing to see what happens.

Been ages since I last updated was finding always writing the same thing a bore couldnt ever think of any thing interesting to say. I just wanted to update to say that I finished my 14 weeks on lighter life in fact I did 18 weeks in total and lost a total of 4 stone 5lbs which I was really happy with I could have done with losing another 9 or so lbs but I just didnt feel that I could go on any longer and decided to stop and then maybe start again beginning of October . I did go onto the route to management but to be honest I havent been able to stick to it at all and in the last 3 weeks I have put on 2lbs which I am not going to obbsess about but at a 1lb a week it wont be long before all the weight is back on but I thought that if I tried to keep my weight pretty stable between now and Oct a few lbs wont matter.

I am happy to report that I am now wearing size 10 jeans and size 12 tops which is just amazing and when i started this I said that if I was in size 10 even for a week I would die happy.

my main problem is that i am now happy with myself and so feel that a few treats wont matter and I still find it hard to equate the food I put in my mouth with the weight that goes on my tummy. I am notstupid but it always seems that a little biscuit or 2 cant possibly make any difference to my weight!!

Well I have just come in from tonights meeting and I lost another 3 lbs so now 1 lb off my 3 stone which is just amazing I never thought when I started this that I would ever get this far. On my scales at home I am now under the BMI of 30 but not quite in the class 30.1 which is more anoying than not having done the 3 stone. The only trouble is now I am beginning to be happy with my body shape I am just wanting to loose the flabby bit round my middle and I am not really hating myself any more which is not a good thing as I am getting bored of not being able to eat or drink normally, but I do know that I need to lose another 2 stone and I will continue.

Bethany is still suffering with her stomache aches which is now becoming ridiculous we have taken her privately for a consultation from which she had some blood tests which thankfully only showed she is mildly aneamic
and she has been given iron but I would like to know what it is that is causing her to be aneamic and she is still in pain and no one seems remotely interested I understand that there is little they can do but there must be some form of pain management that can be discussed I must take her back to the doctor but I think they are getting fed up with me #, but today the school even sent Bethany out of school early because she was suffering so and it is not good that her life is being affected she hasnt been dancing now for weeks and doesnt want to go to the youth club.

My new kitchen is coming along lovely we have got some great friends who are helping us get it all together which is wonderful.

Weigh in on Tuesday and lost another 4.4lbs so total so far 23.2 lbs and people are really noticing.

The children broke up today from school for the late easter holidays so the next 2 weeks could be a little tough as most things I do with them involve food but I am now learning that food does not need be in included in all activities. I keep surprising myself with how well I am doing as I have never ever ever stuck to a diet before and I have not cheated or lapsed as they like to call it once. I am still struggling with consuming all the water and not sure every day I have had the required 4 litres.

Bethany is at the hospital tomorrow so we shall wait and see what they say .

Quick update as this has been the earliest I have been able to get on here seem to have been really busy lately.

Last weigh in was last Tuesday and I lost another 3.9 lbs so now a total of 18.9lbs hoping when I go tomorrow that I manage another 3 lbs so that I will have lost 1 and half stone but I dont like to tempt fate too much and discuss what I think I will have lost. I have now managed to get into my size 14 jeans which not long ago I couldnt do up even laying on the bed!

Not much else to report I have decided to take Bethany private as her father my ex has got insurance for her and we thought we might as well use it but even going privately we have still got to wait until Saturday before she can be seen. She is still in pain so in desperate need of some help with things.

Had a good week this week weigh in was last Tuesday have been really busy so unable to update until now but lost another 4.1 lbs so total now is 14.9 lbs in 3 weeks I am really pleased and can see and feel the difference and others are starting to notice which is always a boost.

One person in the pub on Thursday night spend ages telling me what a dreadful thing I was doing and how a friend of hers did it and how she looked so much better heavier and that she just looked drawn in her face. Surprise surprise she is nice and slim why couldnt she just be happy and proud of her friend who had put in all that effort I think people think that because you lose the weight quickly on this diet it is easy and it is not!

We have got friends coming this weekend due to arrive today after lunch i said it would help the least meals I had to prepare. They are staying until Monday and I think I have organised the meal schedule and I think I can do this walked round Waitrose yesterday with Bethany and bought loads of nice things for everyone else. I got a breath freshener!

Did go out on Thursday and bought myself a new top to wear out tonight and it looked so much better on me than things have in ages so that was great. I am definetly still motivated with this diet.

Have posted some new pics.

Went to the group meeting last night it was the first meeting with what would be described as counselling, but I was pleased to discover that this really just meant chatting about old learned behaviours.

As I had been weighed mid week last Saturday I knew that I hadnt lost much if any more weight since then and I was right only another 0.4lbs but that is still a total of 3.4lbs for the week and 10.8lbs in total for 2 weeks which I am pleased with. The others in the group seem to have found their weight loses reduced this week which only to be expected. Everyone is still enthusiastic though and have vowewd to continue which is good.

I made a muffin out of my chocolate food pack today I cant decide if I liked it or not it definetly made a change from just drinking so that cant be a bad thing.

I took Bethany back to the doctors again! I think he is getting fed up with us but she is in so much pain and looks deathly white with big black bags under her eyes and I am sorry she is my daughter and I just want her to feel well again. The doctor has reluctantly referred her to the hospital I am sure he is right and there is nothing they will be able to do but I must try and see.