I don't really have anything to write but I just need to take my mind off food it is amazing when you mustnt do something how it is all consuming in your mind. I know that I havent started the diet yet but I really want to start now not eating any snacks if I can start to get used to that it must make it easier when I start the diet for real.
I am so glad though that I havent started yet as I am feeling really rough at the moment and a little down, not really sure why. It could just be that I am really feeling nervous and on the edge of what could be a really new beginning, but I wont know how I am going to do until I start. It is easy to talk and write about being on the diet but it will be another thing actually doing it and to be honest I am scared that I wont succeed when everyone else who goes on it seems to have huge success. I think I have already in my mind seen myself a lot slimmer in 3 months time and if it doesnt work I think I might get really depressed.
Bethany has lost her bottom part of her brace so we have got to go to the dentist this afternoon to see if they are going to charge us to replace it. I think that is what is getting me down as well at the moment worrying about that as we really dont have any spare cash. I have spoken with the insurance company though and they have said that it will be covered but we do have to pay the excess and lose our no claims bonus but it will have to be.
I have added the above photo of me with Bethany as I must see what I look like and accept it and one day I will buy a top that isnt black. That will probably be the last photo I put on here of me for a while as not only are all the others really horrid but I dont have many pictures of me as I do avoid the camera.
