Quick update as this has been the earliest I have been able to get on here seem to have been really busy lately.

Last weigh in was last Tuesday and I lost another 3.9 lbs so now a total of 18.9lbs hoping when I go tomorrow that I manage another 3 lbs so that I will have lost 1 and half stone but I dont like to tempt fate too much and discuss what I think I will have lost. I have now managed to get into my size 14 jeans which not long ago I couldnt do up even laying on the bed!

Not much else to report I have decided to take Bethany private as her father my ex has got insurance for her and we thought we might as well use it but even going privately we have still got to wait until Saturday before she can be seen. She is still in pain so in desperate need of some help with things.

Had a good week this week weigh in was last Tuesday have been really busy so unable to update until now but lost another 4.1 lbs so total now is 14.9 lbs in 3 weeks I am really pleased and can see and feel the difference and others are starting to notice which is always a boost.

One person in the pub on Thursday night spend ages telling me what a dreadful thing I was doing and how a friend of hers did it and how she looked so much better heavier and that she just looked drawn in her face. Surprise surprise she is nice and slim why couldnt she just be happy and proud of her friend who had put in all that effort I think people think that because you lose the weight quickly on this diet it is easy and it is not!

We have got friends coming this weekend due to arrive today after lunch i said it would help the least meals I had to prepare. They are staying until Monday and I think I have organised the meal schedule and I think I can do this walked round Waitrose yesterday with Bethany and bought loads of nice things for everyone else. I got a breath freshener!

Did go out on Thursday and bought myself a new top to wear out tonight and it looked so much better on me than things have in ages so that was great. I am definetly still motivated with this diet.

Have posted some new pics.

Went to the group meeting last night it was the first meeting with what would be described as counselling, but I was pleased to discover that this really just meant chatting about old learned behaviours.

As I had been weighed mid week last Saturday I knew that I hadnt lost much if any more weight since then and I was right only another 0.4lbs but that is still a total of 3.4lbs for the week and 10.8lbs in total for 2 weeks which I am pleased with. The others in the group seem to have found their weight loses reduced this week which only to be expected. Everyone is still enthusiastic though and have vowewd to continue which is good.

I made a muffin out of my chocolate food pack today I cant decide if I liked it or not it definetly made a change from just drinking so that cant be a bad thing.

I took Bethany back to the doctors again! I think he is getting fed up with us but she is in so much pain and looks deathly white with big black bags under her eyes and I am sorry she is my daughter and I just want her to feel well again. The doctor has reluctantly referred her to the hospital I am sure he is right and there is nothing they will be able to do but I must try and see.

I am having some real ups and downs with this diet. At the weekend I was feeling really positive and wasnt hungry at all and even found it hard to consume all the food pack. I suppose it was because we were busy out and about. But yesterday I really struggled again I always seem to find Mondays hard. I started to feel really deprived and was in a foul mood with everyone, I was really tierd actually managed to spend alot of the day in bed, when Bronte went to sleep so did I . All my muscles seem to ache not sure why this is, I just felt generally rubbish yesterday and I am SOOOOOOOOO bored with the soups as they all seem to taste the same. How am I ever going to manage another 12 weeks but I know I am going to do it there is no going back now. The only thing that keeps me motivated is I can see the weight coming off on the scales, I think my clothes are getting looser too. My husband said that he thought I was looking better and slimmer in the face which was nice that he had noticed and he said how proud he was of my achievement so far, I think he thought I wouldnt do it. It is weigh in day tonight I dont think i have lost much more since Saturday but that is ok it has only been 3 days.

Bethany is back at school now but she is still suffering with her stomach ache we are all really fed up with it, even the codeine doesnt seem to be helping. The doctor did a urine test at my request but that is even all clear I just wish something would show up that they can fix. We are going back to the doctors tomorrow but I am sure he will just say that it is the gland in her tummy but how long can she expect this to go on for?

I have just been for a mid weel weigh in today and I have lost another 3lbs so everything is going to plan. I wasnt going to get weighed until Tuesday but I was feeling asthough nothing was happening even though people said they could notice. I felt asthough the first weeks weight loss was great but that it couldnt possibley continue but now I know that it can. I am still finding it hard to believe the weight is coming off after so many years of it just going on.

Therefore total weight loss in 11 days is 10.4lbs..........yes I am happy.

on a less postive note Bethany is still feeling poorly the doctor has now given her codiene to try and eleviate the stomach pain but she says it is still not working and I must admit the pain seems to be taking its toll on her and making her generally grumpy. We are all fed up with it but especially Bethany.

I am working in the pub tonight and we have managed to get a babysitter so Andy is going to come up and have a few drinks, it is quite handing doing it this way as Andy gets to have a night out and I dont feel I am missing out by not being able to drink as I wouldnt normally drink whilst working anyhow.

I had my weekly weigh in last night and I have now lost a total of 7.4 lbs in one week which I am really pleased about. Everyone else in the group did so much better than me though the girl next to me lost 11 lbs and one girl even had roast dinner on mothers day and still managed to lose 8lbs so I feel a little cheated as I stuck to the plan exactly. But I mustn't be negative I was really pleased with my weight lose until I heard the others so I just need to focus on myself and carry on. Today has been much easier I feel asthough I am getting into the swing of things now and have accepted that this is my life for at least the next 93 days which sounds better already than 100.

Had to come on and write something as I am really struggling really really struggling I have just served up hot dogs to the kids and you would think they are my most favourite food in the whole wide world. I feel so deprived that I cant have one and am desperate to pop one in my mouth. I know that if I do I will have undone all my hard work and I would hate myself I know that the moment of enjoyment would be extremely fleeting and then I would just be left feeling guilty and totally anoyed with myself. Writing this down has put things into perspective and made me see I am ok not eating I CAN DO THIS!!!!

Well I survived the weekend but it was hard really hard. I didnt want to crack and I knew I wouldnt but it is only the first week I just keep thinking will I be able to keep this up. I am finding that it is getting boring already and I still havent finished week one. Maybe next week when I can have the bars to eat it will make a difference but I doubt it.

The only reason that I know I can carry on at the moment is that I can see the weight coming off. I am really bad and I do weigh myself all day long...usually after another massive wee. I had my 1st official weigh in on Saturday morning though a midweek weigh and yes I have offically lost 5.2 lbs which is amazing in only 3 days. It was good for me to have been weighed then because Saturday night the family wanted a Chinese with my mother in law and I felt that I could cope watching them eat it and I did and I feel even better that I managed that. I even had to feed my son his as he wouldnt eat up..........how fantastic am I !!

I have still got Bethany off school poorly she feels dreadful she has got a doctors appointment today at 11.20 but I know that he will say there is nothing he can do . I just hope he can prescribe some pain killers then she can get back to school because if it is prescribed the school will adminster it.