JUST ABOUT ME

Had to come on and write something as I am really struggling really really struggling I have just served up hot dogs to the kids and you would think they are my most favourite food in the whole wide world. I feel so deprived that I cant have one and am desperate to pop one in my mouth. I know that if I do I will have undone all my hard work and I would hate myself I know that the moment of enjoyment would be extremely fleeting and then I would just be left feeling guilty and totally anoyed with myself. Writing this down has put things into perspective and made me see I am ok not eating I CAN DO THIS!!!!

Well I survived the weekend but it was hard really hard. I didnt want to crack and I knew I wouldnt but it is only the first week I just keep thinking will I be able to keep this up. I am finding that it is getting boring already and I still havent finished week one. Maybe next week when I can have the bars to eat it will make a difference but I doubt it.

The only reason that I know I can carry on at the moment is that I can see the weight coming off. I am really bad and I do weigh myself all day long...usually after another massive wee. I had my 1st official weigh in on Saturday morning though a midweek weigh and yes I have offically lost 5.2 lbs which is amazing in only 3 days. It was good for me to have been weighed then because Saturday night the family wanted a Chinese with my mother in law and I felt that I could cope watching them eat it and I did and I feel even better that I managed that. I even had to feed my son his as he wouldnt eat up..........how fantastic am I !!

I have still got Bethany off school poorly she feels dreadful she has got a doctors appointment today at 11.20 but I know that he will say there is nothing he can do . I just hope he can prescribe some pain killers then she can get back to school because if it is prescribed the school will adminster it.